2026 Manifestorials and Goals

2025 was a very hard year for me. It was a year full of doubts and heartaches and lessons that I will have with me forever. I may or may not be desperate for a great year this time around. Quitting my job was not in my manifestorials for 2025, I think there was absolutely no point with which I new what was going to happen next. Becoming a stagehand was awesome, although their scheduling and building up my position in their roster is going to take some time, but its worth it and it's fun and it's closer to having a job in film and media than I have been in years. A win is a win. Grief over losing a close friend was hard, very hard, and it sometimes feels like I'm still there in those moments feeling the weight of it, of missing him and his jokes and impersonations. It was a really hard way to wind down the year, and really hard to see people I love carry their own grief as well. All in all, it was a rough time, and it still feels like that sometimes. A lot of times. Not to mention spraining my ankle and not being able to walk for over a month.

I redid this website in order to try and be more consistent, and I spent a lot of time finding all of my old work, and putting this portfolio site together. The goal was to try and post more, more art, more animations, more photography, more blog posts—although that one is still newer to me—and yet nothing has really changed or moved. I haven't been consistent, I haven't been inspired. My goals sometimes feel very out of reach and unobtainable. I have big big dreams, and I want them. The world doesn't make it easy at all though. Maybe though if I post it, then maybe I'll have a better time holding myself accountable, because I will get my big big dreams. But, it's gonna take a lot of work.

Goals; consistency and routine. It's already February and I'm trying to post again so that's progress right? Along with posting more consistently to this blog and updating my art and photography more, I would like to also try my hand at publishing my short animations and clips to TikTok and Youtube shorts. The key is consistency, to keep working at it again and again. My biggest goal however is to get my writing in front of an agent. I have completed my first book, and multiple scripts but have had no luck in the sites I have been using thus far. I want to get back into creativity. I am currently working on creating intentional art pieces that can also be used to hold jewelry or that can be used more in the day to day life. My parents taught me to work with my hands, to cultivate and craft and create with them, and I want to honor that more this year. As far as lessons go...taking more pictures of the people you love is a big one. Choosing people over work every time, or at least balancing it more. Being kinder to my body and brain. Reminding myself that things don't move in a linear way, healing grief believing in your art, its an up and down sometimes—and that's okay.